“The aim of God in history is the creation of an all-inclusive community of loving persons, with himself included in that community as its prime sustainer and most glorious inhabitant.”—Dallas Willard
I believe that building community with Him as our prime sustainer and most glorious inhabitant has at its core our personal communion with Him . . . sometimes in solitude. The following is from an earlier entry:
I pull my jacket closer to my body and quietly close the back screen door, not wanting to arouse Vince and Tiger. I consider them my loyal “guard cats,” guarding the farmhouse from any additional forlorn feral cats that would like to call this home. Actually, truth be known, I would welcome more cats into my life, but God seems to have given me a built-in safety mechanism in the garb of Dear Husband that keeps me from over-doing it on the welcome-every-animal-to-the-farm penchant. This morning the cats stretch and come out from under the porch to greet me, but they will have to wait for their handful of dry cat food because I am on a mission.
I reach the gravel driveway and crunch my way past the little workshop, a converted old chicken coop. Heading toward the barn I see Buck, our yellow lab bouncing up and down at the end of his chain, excited at the possibility of being loosed from his own particular guard post—the looming door of the old red barn. Buck’s duties include scaring away any unwanted rodent (although he has been known to spend the winter with a family of skunks that had sneaked in the backdoor of the barn and found refuge in the stack of milled lumber being stored over winter.) Buck’s other duty that he has taken on of his own accord is scaring the daylights out of Vince and Tiger. To Buck, cats are prey. Forget the squirrels and rabbits that inhabit the yard.
Buck loves our early morning walks. What I consider my “prayer walk,” Buck considers as pure adventure and delight. He sits obediently as I run my fingers around his collar, feeling for the metal snap. The instant the snap is loosened Buck is bouncing again, this time in a circle around me as together we head past the barn and move toward the stony road to the pasture above. Finally calmed down, he begins to follow rabbit trails, his nose lightly touching the pebbles and tufts of grass, watching my movements out of the corner of his eye.
We make our way past the old barn. Ahead on the pathway is the gate to the pasture. This gate, a gift built by artistic Second Son, has words carved into it that aptly describe my intent for this early morning stroll: “”I will lift up my eyes unto the hills from whence cometh my help; my help comes from the Lord.” Yes, Lord, I am lifting up, not only my eyes, but my soul to you this morning.” The old glass knob, now turned an antique lavender, glistens in the morning light from the dew that has settled in the sharp crevices. I unlatch the hook, pull the gate open, and walk through onto the tree-lined path. Ever upward we climb on this surprisingly non-flat Kansas pathway. The gravel road leads past the outhouse and up a steep incline, through the cedar and oak woods to a high, blue stem pasture. We are now in part of what is called the “last stand of the tall grass prairie.” These grasslands run from Texas up to Canada in a narrow strip where the land has been unbroken. Less than five percent of the original prairie remains today. Farmer Judd takes great delight in giving tours of this unique pasture land of grasses: the tall bluestem, the buffalo grass, the side oats, the Indian grass. This is a small part of God’s great eco-system, and our family has become partners in care-taking this small plot of ground. My soul begins to drink in the beauty of this out-of-the-way world and I begin my own private time of conversation with the God of all time and eternity.
I call this “conversation” with God, because I do most of the listening up here in this sky-drenched pasture. Having moved from Southern California, now so many years ago, one of the greatest gifts the farm offered was this comforting solitude. It was not just the chance to be alone, but it was a chance to place my body, soul, and spirit into the presence of God without distractions of noise, frenetic activity, and with no concerns about meeting anyone else’s expectations. I could simply let God’s presence become a blanket of comfort and acceptance around me. (to be continued)