Who Am I? #2

“You need to write a song!” These words coming in Messenger from a nephew startled me. “Who? I don’t write songs!” I wrote back.

“Yes,” he replied. “You.” He proceeded to give me some of his reasons and suggestions.

Both he and his young son have been involved in bands and gigs. They were looking for words that my grand-nephew could put to music for his next gig at The Hard Rock Cafe in their city.

Gazing at Steve’s Facebook picture I tried to see the little boy I once knew. Yes, behind the long gray hair and the white beard I still could see a semblance of that little boy. That sweet three-years-old  boy self-consciously walking down the aisle toward Judd and me carrying a white lace pillow. That gentle little boy sitting on the porch step at Grandma’s house cradling a fluffy gray kitten. That sensitive fun-loving little boy now grown into a man.

Yes, I can write down memories and dreams laced with hope and promises. These words are for you, Steve!

Who Am I?

Just a child full of wonder

In a multi-colored world

Dancing, skipping, laughing

Life is safe, secure, and warm.

Chorus

Set me dancing, skipping, laughing

 In this multi-colored world

Lift my heart to hear the music

To the Mystery of Life.

 

Just a young man reaching out

To a crafty, luring world.

Testing, tasting, and still laughing

Life’s beguiling work’s begun.

 

Just an old man losing foothold

In a crazy, mixed-up world.

Mystified, his search is muddled

For the wonder he once knew.

 

Renovation, renovation

In this old decrepit soul.

Can the potter change this vessel?

Can the child be restored?

Chorus

Set me dancing, skipping, laughing

 In this multi-colored world

Lift my heart to hear the music

To the Mystery of Life.

 

Who Am I?

 

Let’s begin with someone who we all think WE know, but who wrestled with the same questions we may have at times:

Who Am I? by Deitrich Bonhoeffer

Who am I? They often tell me
I stepped from my cell’s confinement
Calmly, cheerfully, firmly,
Like a Squire from his country house.

Who am I? They often tell me
I used to speak to my warders
Freely and friendly and clearly,
As thought it were mine to command.

Who am I? They also tell me
I bore the days of misfortune
Equably, smilingly, proudly,
like one accustomed to win.

Am I then really that which other men tell of?
Or am I only what I myself know of myself?
Restless and longing and sick, like a bird in a cage,
Struggling for breath, as though hands were compressing my throat,
Yearning for colors, for flowers, for the voices of birds,
Thirsting for words of kindness, for neighborliness,
Tossing in expectations of great events,
Powerlessly trembling for friends at an infinite distance,
Weary and empty at praying, at thinking, at making,
Faint, and ready to say farewell to it all.

Who am I? This or the Other?
Am I one person today and tomorrow another?
Am I both at once? A hypocrite before others,
And before myself a contemptible woebegone weakling?
Or is something within me still like a beaten army
Fleeing in disorder from victory already achieved?

Who am I? They mock me, these lonely questions of mine.
Whoever I am, Thou knowest, O God, I am thine!