One Hundred Years!!

I think it was the stately old barn  that convinced us to buy the farm. Its age held a nostalgic appeal to Judd and me Though its old red paint had faded to gray,  the barn stood steady and strong under the    weight of hundreds of sweet-smelling hay piled on its top floor.

As the local farmers came to reclaim the hay they had bought, the walls began to reveal not just cobwebs and dust, but memories: old harnesses, tools, and memorabilia. Painted  on the south-east wall was a number: (1918).

The significance of the number was a mystery, until Judd visited one day with old Chappy.  Chapman’s Gas  Station was located on the main road through Keats. If you wanted to know what was happening in the area, you went to Chappy’s, bought a soda from the soda machine,  sat on the bench, and leaned against the outside wall. Chappy, with his pipe in hand, knew all the news of the neighborhood. He also knew the history of Keats. Sitting down beside you, or simply leaning against the wall, he gave us both news and history.

It was through Chappy that we learned the mystery of the date we found painted in the barn.  “I remember my dad talking about how he and others from Keats were putting the roof on that old barn the day that they learned that the Armistice was signed to end the war,” Chappy recounted. That would be a day that we still celebrate: Armistice Day, 1918.

My father was in France on that same day, celebrating with his battalion.

A war,  a soldier, a barn, and residents of Keats, Kansas celebrating with each pound of their hammers up on that tall barn on Kitten Creek Road. History all tied together one hundred years ago!

 

Ah!! I Remember . . .

Fifty years of God’s faithfulness in our marriage  brings a  reflection on Trust.

A particular hymn we occasionally sing in church never fails to stir my heart with memories of gratefulness, joy,  and amazement.

At Philadelphia College of Bible  we sang  “Great is Thy Faithfulness”at every chapel meeting.  I remember hurrying from my room, down  five flights of stairs to the old chapel. Yes, my bed was made, everything picked up and neat. This was the time the dorm mom would visit every room for a room- check. Your bed better be made, and you had best be out of the room and down in chapel, or you would receive that dreaded pink slip.

This had been a challenging year for me. I was homesick. My world was once again seemed to be falling apart. So many things were weighing on my heart. We did not really have the money for me to be here; While we had lived near Philadelphia, our family had re-located to New York the year before, so home was far away; and, my mother and father had separated after a huge fight. Now Daddy was living in Florida. My heart ached most of the time.

As the student body rose to begin the service, I watched  Sherwood, my handsome older brother and president of the Student Body lead us in our traditional song: Great is thy faithfulness, O God, my Father. / There is no shadow of turning with thee. / All I have needed Thy hand hath provided/ Great is thy faithfulness, Lord, unto me.

I think that I sang it as a prayer that entire year. Please, Lord, don’t turn away; I will trust you to provide whatever I truly need. I had no idea what the future would hold, it seemed so far away and a little mysterious. Oh, there definitely was joy during that one year at PCB. I made great friends, I sang in the PCB trio, I was secretary of my class. But in my prayer closet (literally the ironing closet on the fifth floor) I would pour out my heart to God.

Fifty-one years ago, when I contemplated marrying the man who had pursued me with his heart, I drew back. Could it, would it be from God? I needed to be reassured that I was putting my faith, not in Judd, but in the faithfulness of God. The verse that I held as confirmation was James 1:17, a verse I had memorized back in my teens: “Every good gift and every perfect good, cometh down from the Father of lights, with whom there is no variableness neither shadow of turning.” There is no shadow of turning with Thee.

As Judd and I walked down the aisle that special evening, we were stepping into a future that was beyond my imagination. I was stepping out of painful memories into a life of stability, faithfulness, and blessing.

After fifty years of marriage, I again sing that song as a prayer!  I sing. with immense thankfulness and joy. I have the long view of time, now. I can trace His path of faithfulness, through the valleys of sadness and pain and over the mountains of blessings.  Always, His hand provided “all I/we have needed.”

Yes! and Yes!

Rain and Reign

RAIN! In the midst of a drought, we cherish the soft slapping of rain hitting the windows and the smell of the musty, damp earth after the rain.
This morning during a rare thunder storm, we watched as Caleb and Josh, bare-headed and coat-less, walked down the drive to check out what has been a dry creek bed all summer. On their way back, they stopped by the house, drenched to the skin. Dramatically pulling off their rain boots and dumping pints of water on the concrete porch, they gave us an extended “creek report.” Yes, there was water running over the bridge and the creek that had been bone-dry was running in torrents through the large tubes. A little. Their report was cut short by Mama Sara, worried because they had been gone so long, arriving from across the road in the Honda Pilot to usher them back to home school. This had been an extended recess for them.

Oh, the fickleness of man! We trust God for the rain, but we complain to Him about the drought. This morning in my time with Scripture, I was reminded that it is all at the Lord’s bidding or allowance.

And that gets me back into the see-saw of man’s responsibility vs. God’s sovereignty. Ultimately, I know that God has control of the seasons, the climate, and in all of that, our personal lives. As I walk across the dry parched land doing my chores, I plead with God for rain. When the rain finally comes, I thank God.

God is in control . . . oh, blessed thought. Even in our government!  I find encouragement in what Gamaliel said to the Council in Jerusalem who was threatened with the apostles preaching and wanted to kill them. “My advice is to let them alone.  If what they teach is of God, you will not be able to stop them, lest you find yourselves fighting even against God” (Acts 5:19)

I find comfort in God’s sovereignty: the rain that waters the earth and the reign of man.

A House by the Side of the Road

A house on a farm in Kansas? Can actually touch the world? Or is it the world touching the farm? The answer is: Yes . . . both!

Today we sat around the old oak dining-room table and ate sandwiches with a family from Ukraine. Earlier in the morning we breakfasted around the same table with overnight guests from Georgia, USA.

Meanwhile, grandchildren and our children pass by our dining room window: Dan on his daily prayer walk; Elsie on her bike, off to clean for an elderly woman down Kitten Creek Road; the three younger boys watering all the newly planted trees around our home.  Out our kitchen window we catch glimpses across the road of  Caleb and Josh  moving the goats from one pen to another.

I think of the poem (see below) I have always loved. Yes, I am that introvertish kind of person that likes my space but dearly loves other people. In my house-by-the-side-of-the road I have found I can still be a friend to many, many people.

How blessed I am!!!!

 The House by the Side of the Road

 

 There are hermit souls that live withdrawn
In the place of their self content.
There are souls like stars, that dwell apart,
In a fellowless firmament;
There are pioneer souls that blaze the paths
Where highways never ran-
But let me live by the side of the road
And be a friend to man.
Let me live in a house by the side of the road
Where the race of men go by-
The men who are good and the men who are bad,
As good and as bad as I.
I would not sit in the scorner’s seat
Nor hurl the cynic’s ban-
Let me live in a house by the side of the road
And be a friend to man.
I see from my house by the side of the road
By the side of the highway of life,
The men who press with the ardor of hope,
The men who are faint with the strife,
But I turn not away from their smiles and tears,
Both parts of an infinite plan-
Let me live in a house by the side of the road
And be a friend to man.
I know there are brook-gladdened meadows ahead,
And mountains of wearisome height;
That the road passes on through the long afternoon
And stretches away to the night.
And still I rejoice when the travelers rejoice
And weep with the strangers that moan,
Nor live in my house by the side of the road
Like a man who dwells alone.
Let me live in my house by the side of the road,
Where the race of men go by-
They are good, they are bad, they are weak, they are strong,
Wise, foolish – so am I.
Then why should I sit in the scorner’s seat,
Or hurl the cynic’s ban?
Let me live in my house by the side of the road
And be a friend to man.
Sam Walter Foss

 

Yes,

So thankful for the opportunities we have of stepping through the barriers of space to understand our world just a little better.

A Wedding in the Walnut Grove

A wedding! The third grandchild ( third child of Dan and Nancy) is now creating a new limb to our family tree. Lillian and Shiloh’s story goes back ten or eleven years ago when the Brock and Swihart family first met. Even then, it seems, there were sparks. But little did they express that interest until just a few months ago. What joy it was to celebrate their wedding with them. Lillian carried flowers that she had grown in her garden; we shared cherry pie that she and her friends had baked; and the couple drove off in a vehicle that Shiloh and his friends had  “constructed.” Creativity abounds in this couple.

Marriage. God’s plan.  The two become one. And the story grows.

Judd and I are celebrating our 50th this year. We were once the bride and groom creating a limb on the Noble Swihart tree. We had no idea those many years ago how our story would unfold. At this wedding in the walnut grove we held our two great-grandchildren.

Along with a new grand-daughter, Sophie (Derrick and Carrie’s first baby), the joys of babies  and marriage fill our hearts.

 

For the moment, God has wrapped us in a cocoon of contentment.

Re-Collecting in the Pasture

Today I needed to walk the old familiar trail in the pasture again.The thoughts and feelings swirling in my mind and heart were and are disconcerting. Thirty-eight years ago, this pasture was new to me. My body was younger. I was filled with anticipation of what could be, Things in the world were . . . just different. Yes, we were on a down-swing in our culture, but there was hope of changing it.

Yesterday we were young, God was with us, we could carry out the vision under God’s direction. We were a community with one heart.

Today, we are not so young. Our  community living here is of one heart. Our old community is a little splintered. Some have gone left, some have stayed right.

Why do divisions occur? That is my conundrum today. When we are guided by the same Spirit, should we not be of one mind?

Perhaps the enemy is not us, but the Enemy who uses our weaknesses, our blind spots, our idols and will exploits them to weaken the Body of Christ. We can defend what we FEEL  is right. We can stake our lives on what we have figured out. (The wisdom of man is foolishness with God, we are told.) Thus, we can lose sight of the most important, become divided,  and lose the battle.

As I  left the pasture and headed back home I noticed the Troyer’s chickens were beginning to bed down for the night. The sun had gone over the hill on their side  the road. Lining up side-by-side on a post in the barn, they were announcing that it was time to roost. My chickens were far  from the hill, and the sun was still shining where they were. They were continuing to wander around looking for more food. Eventually, the sun will go behind the hill for them, also, and they will go into their pen for the night.

It’s just a matter of time.

New Updates From the Farm

 Woo hoo!!! Three new babies in the Swihart family as of today. In the last nine weeks we have received these little answers to prayer: one grand child and two great-grands! I had to search to find a picture that would illustrate these three, since they have not been together, yet.

The black-haired baby is the one we are waiting for at this moment. This is just a guess, but I am SURE he/she will have a head of black hair like her/his momma and daddy did. The other two babies, Sophie (Derrick and Carrie), and Lydia (Jena and EJ) have light brown hair. Thus, the pic.

And if that is not enough to celebrate,  our grand daughter #2 will be married to a wonderful young man in a couple of weeks. Their wedding will be in the grove of trees that Dan planted when they first moved to the farm. Lovely!!!!!

Oh, how I would love to hold these moments and make them slow down a little. But, that is why God gave us the gift of memory isn’t it?

Our Life in the Country

According to the resident expert this is a lavender Australorp (ROOSTER!!!).

Sometimes life in the country takes “true grit.”

My new replacement hen crowed today.  OOps. He was guaranteed to be a hen. Now, my granddaughter, Lillian, tells me the other “hen” is a rooster, also.

And why do I have a replacement in the first place? This is the sad part. According to the trail cam we also have a mother fox with three kits.  This mom decided she needed to feed her babes, and my wonderful, dear old hens were the dinner. The night before a raccoon had decimated my friendly ducks.

I became an “empty nester” in just a few days. So, what will I do with two roosters? Not sure.

I still have some brown and green eggs from the beautiful hens. Gifts. From them to me, (at least I pretend). I had two fried eggs with toast to day which I ate in memory of the girls.

Silly, inconsequential happenings in the big scheme of things. But everyday, nitty-gritty life on a farm. You win, you lose.  Today I lost the battle with Donqui. Flies are eating his legs, but today I could not catch him to spray the dastardly flies. I gave up and walked away this time. Donqui won. That’s one for the donkey.

Notice his ears. With the can of spray behind my back, I know he will bolt when I pull it out.

 

 

BUT, what is life without challenges? I still love this life on Kitten Creek Road.

I AM . . .

I . . . AM . . . ME!!! Staring out the window, I let the idea slowly sink into my four-year-old brain.  This idea was an incredible revelation. I am ME!!! I have been talking to ME my whole life. That voice in my head is ME. The feeling that flowed through my body felt familiar to this little farm girl: precisely like touching the wire of an electric fence.

“Well, hello ME.”

I am sure everyone comes to that realization at some point in their early lives. The recognition that when we think good thoughts, when we think bad thoughts, all that stuff that comes from inside our heads is coming from the essence of who we are.

Oh, dear!

That awakening did not mean I quickly became the master of my soul. Years would pass as I grew in my understanding of an incredible reality: I am a Me who is very dependent upon the Creator of Me.

Dallas Willard says, “Understanding is the basis of care. What you would take care of you must understand . . .. If you would care for your spiritual core—your heart or your will—you must understand it” (Willard 9).

I am in the process of rereading Dallas Willard’s Renovation of the Heart for probably the fourth time. I need those reminders: The little taps on the shoulder; the below-the-surface digging; the warm encouragement; the reminder that life is more than slogging through this muddy, fallen world.

Will I ever be renovated entirely, I wonder? Probably not. But the promise of someday living closer to what God intended for this “me” that He has created compels me to continue this conversation between the Creator and the Me.

 

 

Who Am I? #2

“You need to write a song!” These words coming in Messenger from a nephew startled me. “Who? I don’t write songs!” I wrote back.

“Yes,” he replied. “You.” He proceeded to give me some of his reasons and suggestions.

Both he and his young son have been involved in bands and gigs. They were looking for words that my grand-nephew could put to music for his next gig at The Hard Rock Cafe in their city.

Gazing at Steve’s Facebook picture I tried to see the little boy I once knew. Yes, behind the long gray hair and the white beard I still could see a semblance of that little boy. That sweet three-years-old  boy self-consciously walking down the aisle toward Judd and me carrying a white lace pillow. That gentle little boy sitting on the porch step at Grandma’s house cradling a fluffy gray kitten. That sensitive fun-loving little boy now grown into a man.

Yes, I can write down memories and dreams laced with hope and promises. These words are for you, Steve!

Who Am I?

Just a child full of wonder

In a multi-colored world

Dancing, skipping, laughing

Life is safe, secure, and warm.

Chorus

Set me dancing, skipping, laughing

 In this multi-colored world

Lift my heart to hear the music

To the Mystery of Life.

 

Just a young man reaching out

To a crafty, luring world.

Testing, tasting, and still laughing

Life’s beguiling work’s begun.

 

Just an old man losing foothold

In a crazy, mixed-up world.

Mystified, his search is muddled

For the wonder he once knew.

 

Renovation, renovation

In this old decrepit soul.

Can the potter change this vessel?

Can the child be restored?

Chorus

Set me dancing, skipping, laughing

 In this multi-colored world

Lift my heart to hear the music

To the Mystery of Life.